Sinussahan on jo kaikki

Otsikko viittaa blogiin, jonka olin jo hetki sitten perustamassa. Minua on jo pitkään vaivannut halu kirjoittaa, purkaa ajatuksia jonnekin. Ajattelin, että olisiko tässä uuden blogin paikka.

Sitten kuitenkin halusin palata vielä vanhan blogini pariin. Vanha tuttu vaihtoehtointiaani siis täällä. Se, mitä minulla nykyään on sanottavana, on kuitenkin hyvin erilaista mihin te vanhat lukijat olette ehkä tottuneet.

Lyhyesti kuulumisia:

- Olin Levillä töissä, ja tylsyyksissäni selasin Tinderiä. Sieltä matchasin erään haukiputaalaisen pitkätukan kanssa, joka oli työmatkalla Saariselälle niin ikään tylsyyksissään ladannut Tinderin, ja loppu on historiaa.

-Muutin samaisen pitkätukan kanssa Tornioon 5 kuukautta myöhemmin. Helmikuussa, hieman ennen karkauspäivää kosin häntä, ja sain myöntävän vastauksen. Oikeasti minun olisi pitänyt odottaa karkauspäivään, mutta en vain osaa pitää salaisuuksia. Häitämme juhlitaan ensi kesänä.

-Perheeseemme on liittynyt myös Ohto-siili, jonka kanssa pitkätukka (kutsuttakoon häntä vastedes Huuhkajaksi) on jatkuvasti sotajalalla. Ohton on vaikea ymmärtää, mihin on soveliasta tehdä tarpeensa hädän sattuessa. Tähän mennessä se vahinko sattuu aina Huuhkajan tavaroiden läheisyydessä. Ei koskaan minun :D

Joulukuussa matalaa majaamme muutti myös tarantellamummo Janis! Hän on jo yli 20-vuotias, vasta iloisesti loi nahkansa kun oli hoidossa Huuhkajan velipojan luona. Mie ku olin niin oottanu että näkisin kyseisen tapahtuman... Tällä hetkellä mummeli mutustelee sirkkaa terraariossaan. Ohto nukkuu.

-Yllättäen olemme myös muuttamassa Ouluun. Huuhkaja pääsi sinne opiskelemaan, ja mie jatkan edelleen töitäni Kemissä. Sain pienen yksiön läheltä Kemin keskustaa, ja nyt sitten pidän vakiosoitettani yhteisessä asunnossamme Oulussa, ja kuljen töissä Kemin yksiöstäni.

- Valmistuin Lapin Yliopistosta yhteiskuntatieteiden maisteriksi. Graduni aiheena oli metallimusiikkiin liitetty oletettu asenteellisuus, halutessanne voitte kysyä tuota osoitetta graduuni. Löytyyhän se ihan Googlellakin.

- Olen onnellinen. Auttamattoman, käsittämättömän, pelottavan onnellinen. Kaikki on hyvin. Saan rakastaa ja olla rakastettu enkä voisi enää haluta mitään enempää. Saan laskut maksettua, kaapissa on ruokaa, ja Pokemoneja löytyy kiitettävästi. Haimme tänään myös uuden frisbeen,tarkoituksena on lähteä ruoan jälkeen vähän heittelemään / etsimään uusia Pokemoneja. Elämä on tässä ja nyt.

Ajottain poden kuitenkin massiivista maailmantuskaa, ja tästä syystä poistin esimerkiksi Instagramin. En vain kestänyt sitä siloteltujen kuvien tulvaa, jota minulle tulvi hakutoiminnon kautta. Halusin enemmän, halusin aitoa kontaktia, aitoja ihmisiä ja aitoja kokemuksia. Halusin teidät takaisin. Olen siis täällä taas. Ensi tekstissäni jatkan enemmän aiheesta "sinussahan on jo kaikki", koska se on totta. Minun ja sinun kohdalla.

P.S Lukeeko blogeja enää kukaan? Vai onko tämä yhtä toivotonta joutsenlaulua?

Black metal meets burlesque

Hi there! I am not dead. Just have been busy with my master thesis (which is, btw ready hence some little details with the layout, but it is finally ready phew) and also done couple of burlesque shows. The other was just two weeks ago in Jyväskylä and the other over a month ago..oops. But anyway, it was somewhat different this time since I had a great chance to do burlesque that is really MINE. So I decided to use a bit heavier sound and bring some bodily fluids into my show. So, here is how it looked like (all the photos are taken by my dear Sereijan)

 

  The first show was done to this song: 

The second show was so hectic it was difficult to get any proper photos. Therefore the only still photo is from this kind of view:

 The second show was done to this song:

Olivia Occulto in action!

Some of you were interested to see more photos about my burlesque shows and in general photos of Olivia. Well, here you are! We had our Halloween show couple of weeks ago in which I had two performances.

This was the first time I had a chance to do my "own" kind of burlesque and boy oh boy I enjoyed it. Hope the next time won't take this long.

Bye bye good old fella

I have a devastating announcement to make; Mr. Hedggie has left me. He died yesturday, by my decision. It was the hardest I've ever made, but it was the right one. He just started to fade away and did not have the strenght to live a proper hedgehog life. Bye for now, little one. I loved you more than you could have ever imagined.

Die Todten reiten schnell

...but I won't. Long time no see, huh? During my no-so-planned break I've been...

-doing loads of burlesque shows! I am SO alive once I step onto the stage. For this autumn I still have three more shows to do, one of them on next Saturday HERE. If you are in Rovaniemi and still don't know what to do, head to our awesome burlesque event. I've seen almost all the performances and I can promise a great variety within performances.

-started a new relationship! And never been happier, can't almost believe how easy it can be with someone. No stress, no anxiety. Just pure happiness. For now :D But, furtheron I shall call him Mr. Hearse (yes, he DOES have one!!!). What else. Well, other great stuff about him (alongside with the hearse, heehee) is that he really gets my weirdness and does not feel uncomfortable with all my skulls and bones, actually he found a fox skull and brought it to me, how romantic is that? He really likes old horror movies, old American cars and LOVES the fact that I do burlesque. Match made in...hell-ish I guess.

-Did some DIY! I found these cherubs from flea and instantly got an idea to decorate them "a bit". Here they are:

Here still on progress. And then...

Meet my boys. Have to say, I am quite pleased how they turned out!

Mr. Hedggie is still just chillin' and rollin' on. Yesturday he slept quite a bit on my lap, and I just couldn't resist taking a photo. He's been living here with us for...almost three years and I still am amazed how adorable he is.

He really is my darling.

I've also hunted! Did not get the moose I wanted, but two hazel grouses and one black grouse met their end with my shotgun. RIP all of you.

I have two shows on Saturday's Halloween special, and this is one of those two. The other one...includes some bones. We'll see. :D

For the very end, I'd love to share a Nemi strip with you. This was posted on my Facebook. Can't imagine why...

Facts about me

1. My mom is OBSESSED with organizing things. Well, I am not. And atm we are having a fight about it :D

2. I hate leak.

3. I freak out if I see a clown, thanks to movie "It"

4. I rarely remember any of my dreams and when I do, they are 100% fucked up.

5. I was a huge Nirvana-fangirl at high school

6. I love funny things, like picking up cool stuff from the ground (pins, stickers, u name it), squeezing blueberries until they burst all the juice, the feeling when you get your socks off and slip your feet under the blanket...

7. I am impulsive and I get quickly tired of everything. Wonder why I have screwed up so many relationships? :D

8. Then again I am super loyal to my dearest friends and to my family. For example, I travelled through the night and over 900 km just to see my friend since I knew she needed me.

9. I am pessimist, cynical and kinda misanthropic. But still, I yearn to love and to be loved. Atm only by Mr. Hedggie, but he is doing a great job <3

10. I have started to eat more fish. I have lived by a lake for my entire_life and I just hated the smell and taste of fish. This is on progress..

Blurry life

My life is so damn hectic atm. I just travel most of the time from one place to another - it seems too hard to settle down anywhere. I also love the feeling of GOING somewhere. The little itch when you know, that the next few days are going to be full of new places, new people and it feels so refreshing. I can't stop myself from snapping a billion photos onto the Instagram just for the need to share those precious moments with the people I know. I want to tell them that this is me, although it has been hidden for the last 4 years. It was so good to feel like myself again, after all those years filled with anxiety and the feeling of being lost, not being the girl I really am.

And then who I am? According this very cute Facebook test I am like Peter Pan. And yup, that's how I feel like and always have felt. Untamed, wild, hungry for memories to cherish and sharing them with the people close to you. Desperatly consious of all the bad things in the world, but still trying to enjoy it. Achingly aware of my short time on this planet, and trying to do my very best to get everything the world has to offer for me. In good, but also the bad.

Now I would love to share some of my Insta-highlights with you guys. Just remember:

"But we have only one life to live, just one opportunity
And failure is not the end of the world, that's just society!"

(Woods of ypres - Career suicide)