Me? Master of social sciences? Whoa.

So, some of you guys wanted to hear more about my master thesis. I am a bit early with my graduating, but I think it's just better. I really can't understand how some people manage to hang at the university so long, I am getting so bored since I am running out of courses. That was the main reason for me to start to do my master so early. With very little effort (reading some books and then writing an essay) I have done all the necessary courses for this year, and I fell I've been SO lazy. But, only courses I have to take any more are the practical one (ongoing), one or two philosophy courses (probably I'll do them next spring after master thesis is done) and two courses from sociology. That's it, my carieer at the uni.

But again to the subject. I'll study metal sub-culture in my master thesis, and furthermore satanism and so called "metal satanism". It is a term developed by Merja Hermonen, a academic from theology who did her doctoral thesis about Satan worshipping and she divided satanism into different classes and metal satanism is one of them. In a nutshell, according to Hermonen metal satanism is a ideological form of music, that takes influences from Scandinavian and other heroic mythologies and critises the humanity, faith and religion. However, I did not buy the term "satanism", since this category included myself and I don't want to be called satanist or any kind of -ist. I started to wonder, wether other people within this category felt the same I did and there it was, question and the subject for my thesis. My professor really liked my idea and atm I have send the interviews and got couple of them back. I need to do one more essay about my thesis and the plan about the study process.

The best thing of course is the literature I'll use. Lords of chaos, Evolution of the cult...can't get much better.

Do you have some questions about this process? I am more than happy to answer :)

Ps. I probably have not told you about my latest hobby? I started my burlesque carieer couple of months ago and now I've done two shows. This is just fan-tastic! If you would loke to learn more about my alter ego, Olivia Occulto, her page can be found on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/oliviaocculto

All the burlesque stuff is the main reason I have not written for a long time. It is just brilliant, fun..and very consuming :D All I want to do is craft pasties endlessly, or plan new shows. Dear God, I hope this is only a phaze because if I am this crazy about showing my boobs 24/7, I'll never get my thesis done.

Style insiration for spring/summer 2014

As years have gone by, I have noticed some changes in my thoughts about style and clothes. First: comfortable is the key word. I don't enjoy my evening sitting in a corset I cannot breathe in (hence the burlesque events) or shoes that are just killing my feet. Nope, I want to wear nice clothes I feel comfortable in and the most important: clothes that tell who I am.

My style inspirations atm are:

-Occult, schock. I just love all these draped jersey stuff they are selling in every place. I made a small order to H&M webstore, and it included:

 This tunic is almost like a tarot card. I liked it and will wear it with leather leggings and combat boots.

I am most likely too damn short for this dress but I will try it!


-Rings! Loads of them! I saw these stone-like rings on H&M and they were not too expensive. Come to mama.

Even more rings, I liked the combination of silver, gunmetal and...gold?

All pics ahead are from hm.com

-Large hoods, paganic dresses and tops

This is from Gina Tricot, I saw one alike on H&M but they were sold out. I was desperate to find similar one somewhere and finally found it from GT. Pic from ginatricot.com

Inspirational person right now is Lydia Deetz <3

Pic from: http://chelseasgirl.files.wordpress.com/2011/06/beetlejuice8.jpg

Pic from: http://25.media.tumblr.com/1a64a3677b17666f11dd2909f6e642b9/tumblr_murhvaUqmc1spv2zto2_500.jpg

Oh man this master thesis is killing me. First of 3 essays is now done, 3 more to go and 30 pages to write. My subject is metal satanism (according one researcher) and do the people within black metal-scene think this is a proper concept to describe themselves or their relationshio to the music they listen to. Well that was one monster for a sentence, but in a nutshell that's what I am doing my thesis about. Right now I am going through all the possible literature about black metal, and atm I own three books: Lords of Chaos, Blod eld och död and my latest baby:

I think that with these studies and my own I will be able to graduate from sociology, finally.

10 meaningful albums-challenge

I got this challenge ages ago from lovely Horros and finally I have the time and inspiration to do this. Here we go. 10 meaningful albums of my life.

1. Queen - A night at the opera

I can't describe how much I love Queen's music. It's full of expression, So powerful and yet so vulnerable. What kind of musician the whole world lost when Freddie died, R.I.P dear fella.

2. Nightwish - Wishmaster

This music was actually my first touch into the metal music. I remember when I got this album on my birthday and since that I played it over and over again. At the age of 10 :3 My teacher started to cry when I took this album to school, she was... well, a fanatic Christian.

3. Tori Amos - Little Earthquakes

I remember listening this album when I was on 3rd class of high school. Not good time for me, I was really sick and so tired. This album gave me some strenght back then.

4. Diablo - Eternium

Diablo was actually my first step into the darker, harder metal. I was...16 years old when I first started to listen this kind of music. So it was not anymore hc-teenage angst, thank God :D It was mostly because of my boyfriend I got into the metal music but I am happy for it. This music has given me so much, friends, life, strength to be my own self.

 I could not find the full album, but here's one track from it!

5. Gorgoroth - Antichrist

This band was propably my first touch to black metal. I heard it and it had me. Still on that (left hand) path theehee! :D

6. Satyricon - Volcano

This band was with Gorgoroth first bm-bands I started to listen regularly. Satyricon is not so my thing anymore, but I remember my first bm-gig, it was Satyricon's and I loved it with my every cell!

7. Archgoat - Whore of Betlehem

Once I got known to bm, that was it. I knew it was SO my thing. It escalated with this album, even after all these years this album gets me excited! (not in THAT way you filthy-minded darklings)

8. God Seed - I begin

Gaahl.I am a hopeless fan girl, do I need to say anything more?

9. Burzum - Filosofem

I think that this album does not need any excuses. It's just brilliant in every possible way.

10. Spice Girls- Spiceworld.

I rest my case.

+BONUS:

 This takes me to the fantasy world in which I wish to live in.

Pics from the past

Hi there. I've been gone for ages but now I feel like it is time to come back. But in a nutshell, I was so lost with my future, what should I do when I feel horribly miserable in my current city and all I do is long back to the north. I almost moved back to my home but then again it is time for me to stop running away all the problems that I and no one else has developed for oneself. It does not matter where I live, these things just keep haunting me for rest of mylife if I don't stood up and face them. So, I decided to stay. I don't want to live so far away from my Viking (<3) and then again I am so used to live in town so in a long term the country-living would drive me nuts since all I got to do is just my master thesis and nothing else. Well, I am going to spend some time at my parents since I've got a job for summer and September, but the rest of my summer is most likely going to be very busy with travelling around Finland and cooking festival food for hungry, drunk people :D

But, the point if this post is my past that is fortunately only past now. I used to be very sick just 5-6 years ago and these photos are from that era.

At these times I was nothing but skin and bones and sure as hell I don't miss this. Sometimes I feel anxious about my weight but then again I try to remember how much I have to be grateful of. I am healthy, I've got two legs and pair of arms, I can walk and function like a  human being is supposed to. I need to cherish and love my body and give every possible attention for it. It has deserved it.

Lovely oddities

You may have noticed that I do have a great love for bones, antlers, taxidermies and so on (although, I would never want to get a fetus in a jar, that's way too creepy). What makes almost every piece in my collection so special is that they are collected straight from the nature. Crow skull is bought from artist but hence that I have found them from the wild. Like these lovely antlers.

EDIT: Some other pics, too. Now that I have a chance to put them here in the same post. Jesus Christ how I hate bad Internet connections sometimes. In the small village my parents live you should sometimes turn into a magician to get yourself online...

Blurry pics and blurry thoughts about shopping

These winter days drive me nuts. There is hardly any proper light and my pics go instantly fricking blurry. Well, the point is to show you I don't actually need anymore ANY clothing or shoes so maybe these photos will serve the purpose.

 My t-shirts, tops, longsleeves etc. Plenty of those.

 More longsleeves, vests, jackets.

Boots. New Rocks, bikers, New Rocks, combat boots, sneakers and moccasins. Heels are missing, I've got 4 more pairs of them. Plenty of shoes I'd say.

Conclusion? I don't NEED anything. What I WANT is different thing. But, since my own consuming makes me feel anxious these days, I made a promise to myself. Here it comes:

1. Don't buy anything you don't need. If something gets broken, missing etc you can buy new one, but unless that don't buy anything you already have.

2. Instead, why not spend your money on experiences? Gigs, festivals, u name it. Rather than just material thing you don't use or need.

Pic from HERE

3. Try to enjoy other things in life. For example, I will pay a visit to home on next weekend and I can't wait. There is Mr. Hedggie, mum and dad, little brother and all little things I love. Like daddy's quiet steps in mornings when he is trying not to wake you up, moment's of joy when you are watching BBC series with dad on sofa, baking with mum, little brother when he is trying to annoy you and you know it's only because he missed you so much.

4. Feel good that your recent purchases have been second hand or bought straight from Etsy and made by one person, not just bunch of kids in India. You have bought quality and are allowed to feel good about it.

5. For the rest of 2014, I will no buy anything unnecessary. This includes make up, other cosmetics, shoes, clothing, jewellery etc. If I want something I can ask it for a birthday present etc. 

In a nutshell, I am so tired of this modern mentality when it comes to shopping. As if it was okay just to spend money on things you don't need? Why not buy good will? I intend to save my money and instead of buying loads of crap I want to consider carefully where to spend.

For example, tattoos are not waste of money. At least not for me.

Recently I've done some shopping and maybe I'll show some of them for you as well, but for now it does not feel good to get any more stuff. I've also made a major clear out in my closet and put loads of things on sale just to get rid of them. 

Diy chloride dying

 Once in a while I get some ideas I just HAVE to put in practice. One of these was this dress which I haven't used for... ages. Now with some post apocalypse vibe it seems much more wearable than before! All I needed was a bottleful of chloride.

 I also bleached pair of jeans, but I am not sure yet wether I should decorate them with some studs and textile paint. We'll see. I've got some more of these DIY-projects. At some point I need to dye one military handbag and maybe sew some patches on it. Until then, stay tuned!